Monday, March 27, 2017

mood in blue




this year i have finally realized that time does not slow down for anyone.

i think i've always known how fast time flies, you guys probably hear me say it in EVERY post now that i think about it... lol oops!
BUT THAT'S BECAUSE IT JUST KEEPS GETTING FASTER AND FASTER!

for this post i had the opportunity to do a stylized shoot with @paigecasazza when she was down in UT earlier this year! 
paige and my sister used to be high school pals and so it was really fun to be able to meet her and get to know her, work with her, and have a blast doing this shoot!

i think it's fun to get to know, follow, and support other photographers and see their different styles shine through!

 @jnoelle.design designed this lovely blue dress for us. 
the lace was so intricate and dainty and i love the soft powder blue.

when we shot back in february i think we imagined having a little more snow but i can't complain because the weather turned out beautifully for this shoot!




i am hoping to get some more collaborations in the works and get out and model more!

the past couple of weeks have gone by so quick but i've also been able to take a few more steps into the modeling pond and that just makes me more excited to keep doing what i do and practicing more and more with every shoot.

this past week i was able to go home and catch up on my recordings of ANTM of this past season and man that show.... has always been and will always be my favorite.

especially getting into modeling recently and developing this love i didn't know i really had, learning all there is about the form and the work it takes to be a model, it really makes me appreciate what those girls go through and makes me yearn for the chance when i will hopefully get to experience some day.



i know i still have a long way to go.
i know i'm still learning.
i just have to be patient with the process.
i'm excited to learn more.
i'm excited to make mistakes so i know what to work on so that i can improve.

making my blog has gotten me out of my shell in front of the camera and that is the first step to modeling. i am no longer camera shy and oh boy did i use to be!! 

however i must admit..
i still have my up and down days. 
the days where i don't really believe in myself or what i'm doing 
and i'm going to be honest, 
there are days where satan tries to get me to believe that i can't do it or that i'm not like the other girls out there who are making it in the big leagues in blogging or modeling or even acting. 
and there are days where i don't want to be in front of the camera. there are days that i don't know what to post... and so i don't. there are days that i don't feel like i'm cut out to be a blogger. with work and school being my constant 24/7 it's hard to keep up with posting three times a day, every day, never missing a day, and always making a post every week.

but guess what? 
it's okay! 
it's okay to have the bad days so that we can appreciate the good days even more.
i know that it's all a part of the process and that i shouldn't compare myself to anybody else because we are all on this journey called LIFE and we are all going at the paces that are right for us.
i know that life is still GOOD and that my blog is a fun hobby that i enjoy doing and that i don't need to make it a stressful thing!

i know you readers probably feel similarly in various aspects of your life. 
this past week i heard a phrase that i often hear a lot of individuals say.
 i feel like many individuals refer to social media as "seeing all of the best moments of people's lives" and for bloggers, that's kind of what we are known for/criticized for.
and i know that always seeing people's "perfect posts" sometimes can be really discouraging. 
Haha it even gets ME down sometimes. 
i don't always have the prettiest pictures to post. my room isn't always nice and tidy. my kitchen isn't the perfect shade of white nor does my french toast have the best toppings for a photo. 
however it's just a picture! it's just .5 seconds out of their millions of seconds a day where anything and everything else can happen that we DON'T know about.

SO BE PATIENT WITH YOURSELF

us bloggers, we are just the same as you. we all struggles and insecurities. 
and we all get a little moody! 
there are times where we don't feel like we've got the world in the palm of our hands despite what it may look like on social media. 
and most cases, we don't have it all put together. 
and none of us are any different than anybody else with any other hobbies or jobs!  

we don't need to compare ourselves to anybody else based on what we look like on social media. social media is a snapshot of a moment in someone's life. not their entire life. 
so let's stop being hard on ourselves. you are doing better than you think! let's stop comparing. and allow yourself to get a little moody too! but also, stay true to you and do whatever you want to do!  
because life is meant to be lived and loved by YOU.

xoxo // kenzie kaye









Tuesday, March 7, 2017

the end of feb.













am i the only one who is happy for feb to be over because that means it starts getting warmer??? 
even though this coat is super cute, i'm pretty excited to stop wearing it every single day ;)

it's now the second week of march and i feel absolutely SHEEPISH for barely getting a post up! 
i have all of these shoots i took over the winter break, and i am just barely remembering that i still have to post about them!

february went by so fast. 
i am grateful february has come and gone. that was a challenging month, a busy month.
i am already halfway done with the semester in school!
i spent most of the month trying to find a car, dealing with car accident problems, insurance companies, and car rental places.
(i had so many people calling me a day about my car i have never felt so popular in my life lol)
 i spent a lot of time working, going to school, and doing lots of homework and tests.

i tried being a responsible adult and spent a lot of time doing all of my homework before i left on my disney vacation with my family.

february was stressful and not very fun, it was really cold and it snowed a ton.

BUT THERE WAS ALSO A FEW VERY EXCITING THINGS THAT HAPPENED
liiiiiiiike
- getting my hair done! 
(i went a tad darker than usual and went 'chop-chop' to the ends & got some new layers)
-which i don't really have any pics from a shoot with my new hair yet but i'll talk about it a whole lot more when i do-
- booked my first "real" modeling gig/shoot with urban
(you may see me on a book cover without any makeup on and some dirt smudged all over my face but that's still pretty sick nevertheless)
-got a "new" car! 
(well... i've never met it before so it's new to me. it's white. and i still have yet to name it...) 

and that's about it!

this shoot was done by @sierrakatephotography 
luckily i was able to shoot with her for a second when i stayed at my parents' house for the weekend. 
she's the sweetest girl and i'm so grateful she came out in the freezing cold to shoot with me!

hopefully in march i'll remember that i actually have a blog and won't get so far behind ;)
i've got some awesome shoots to show you!

xoxo // kenzie kaye








Friday, February 3, 2017

Little Black Turtle Neck
















Holy COW-ZA.
this post is finally up. 

lol I think these pics are from.... the week of Christmas Break... and it's already February so I can't even. I literally cannot.

but it's okay we can party now because today is the day that I finally have time to get some posts ready!

do you guys ever have days where you just feel inspired to get everything done??

mhmm yeah that's me today!

i have been doing a lot of shoots lately and getting some really awesome posts finished for you guys!
as some of you have seen, i've started playing with photography and that's a new hobby of mine.
i have a post lined up of my photography pics that i did the other day for my blog. 
check out my instagram for that when it's ready!
i have been meeting so many incredible photographers! they are so so inspiring to me. 
i love collaborating with new photographers and getting to know and share both of our art on social media, shouting out to them, and working with them. 
if you are wanting to collaborate ANYTIME about literally ANYTHING...

SHOOT ME AN EMAIL, DM, COMMENT, OR FB MESSAGE IDC.
i want to get to know you!!

my email is kenzkaye22@gmail.com
(you can find it on instagram)
my instagram is kenz_kaye 

go follow me if you're not already. 
i post every single day.
and i try my best to answer back to you guys as fast as i can!

haha i remember this shoot was SOOOO cold.
my outfit is pretty much a mixture of everything!
i've got my fur vest that's at least three years old, 
my black turtle neck from +Forever 21 which is honestly one of my go-to tops in my closet, (it's exactly like my blue sweater i wore for my blue december shoot) so comfy. i love it,
my FAV FAV FAV FAV FAV pair of high waisted black skinny jeans from +Hollister Co.,
my maroon winter coat from +Hollister Co.,
and some TOTES boots i got for christmas.
because HA i was DESPERATELY in need of some winter boots this year.
thank you Santa.

my cute flower crown is actually stolen from my sister's closet. 
(not the boutique, my actual sister's closet)
and it's from brushfirefloral  on instagram! 
which is absolutely adorable i love this shop.

thanks for reading this week!

xoxo // kenzie kaye


 black turtle neck // similar see here // hollister black high waisted jeans // totes winter boots // white fur vest // similar see here 











Tuesday, January 24, 2017

sunday's rush in blush






sunday started beautifully. 

woke up in a wonderful mood. 
i got up bright and early, actually GOT READY, and was even 30 minutes EARLY.
WHAT.
i wish i could say that i did that all on my own without any reason why but... the only reason i was actually on time and early was because i was singing in sacrament meeting.
and guess what, IT WENT GREAT.

it was such a good sunday you guys!!! 
the speakers were SO good, i survived through my song, our wonderful stake president spoke, and the rest of our classes that day were amazing.
and after church, i actually made myself some food -other than cereal- and headed off to ward choir practice.
WILLINGLY.

like i said, it started off as a great sunday.






i was so excited when i received this shirt from @shopamara clothing in the mail. 
my sister has a similar shirt like this in teal and i've been jealous ever since.
also, i love getting packages in the mail.

online shopping is possibly my new kryptonite.

anyways,
teal would've been a lovely color but 
BLUSH PINK IS MY FAVORITE COLOR GUYS.
i needed it in my life.
the high neck, the ruffled cuffed sleeves and collar, the peplum bottom??
it was a perfect find if i do say so myself.





okay back to sunday.

i've been needing to do a blog post for a while now and sunday was one of my only days this week that i could take pics. 
as i was debating whether or not to do them inside or outside because of the cold & snowy weather, i just decided to be bold and drive up to the canyon to do them.
the roads weren't that bad and it was early enough in the day i thought we'd be fine right?
-what could go wrong?-

we were coming back home from out of the canyon and sooooo excited to get home where it was nice and warm. 
when we saw a car slip on the road. 
we were just like "woah did you see that?"
but i didn't think much of it because we were all the way over on the opposite side of the road going the other way i didn't think anything bad was going to happen to us.




then another car hit that patch on the road and started slipping.
this car wasn't so lucky at correcting and it started to slide through the two lanes that were separating this now sliding car and.... me.

and let me tell ya, THAT was terrifying.

a car was sliding STRAIGHT towards me.

i didn't have any time to really do anything. i couldn't speed up. i couldn't slow down. either way this car was going to hit me. 

i saw the car coming out of the corner of my eye almost perpendicular to my drivers side.
i knew at that moment that we were going to get hit and that this was REALLY happening.

i remember hearing myself scream,
"WE'RE DYING"
to my roommate, 
(who literally just stayed calm and said "you're okay you're okay you're good we're okay it's going to be okay" the whole time)
and then our car got pushed/we drove off to the side of the road and into a snow bank.

it kind of felt like a rollercoaster ride.

(haha so were my emotions after that point!) 

i didn't cry because of shock.
i mostly cried because my car (whom i love so very much) was now crushed.
but i am so so so thankful that nobody got hurt. 
my car accident could've ended a lot worse than it was.





but holy cow i am so grateful for a Father in Heaven who is looking out for me.
and for the power of prayer.
i was praying that whole trip for protection.
from the moment i got in the car and started driving there i was constantly praying.
-because okay the canyon can give ya a lil anxiety especially in the snow-
and even though it didn't end in the way that i thought it would... even though i still got hit... i didn't have a scratch on my body, no broken bones, and me and my roommate are still alive.
-the other car was totally fine as well- so that's also good!

this week has been a little rough ugh and it's only tuesday but i know that it'll get better. 
and i know God has a plan for all of us.
and that He KNOWS where i am at all times and what i NEED.
and that there is always something to learn from the trials and experiences that we go through.
even though i don't know what that is right now, this experience has truly been humbling and it reminds me to never take the moments in life that we have for granted. 



people say all the time, "you never know when it'll be your last"
but that could not be more true.

love others, love often, and live life to it's fullest!
 tell the ones you love that you love them and share that love with the rest of the world. 
tell your family you love & miss them.
tell you friends.
be there for other people and let other people be there for you.
(that's one i am DEFINITELY having to work on, especially since the accident)
haha i just like being independent and i feel like i can do everything by myself and on my own and that i don't need anybody else... however we all need to let people in! 
we will only grow so much more if we do.

we can't do it all on our own.
we need Heavenly Father in our lives constantly.
we need His constant protection.
His constant love and support.
WHICH WE HAVE. ALWAYS. NO MATTER WHAT.
He never abandons us!!!

i know that to be true.

thank you for all of your kind words and support the past few days. all of your texts, calls, and little check ups to see if i'm doing okay! 

i love you all thanks for reading!

xoxo // kenzie kaye

blush pink peplum top // aero stretchy jean leggings // similar see here  // bohme boutique bag