Monday, March 27, 2017

mood in blue

this year i have finally realized that time does not slow down for anyone.

i think i've always known how fast time flies, you guys probably hear me say it in EVERY post now that i think about it... lol oops!

for this post i had the opportunity to do a stylized shoot with @paigecasazza when she was down in UT earlier this year! 
paige and my sister used to be high school pals and so it was really fun to be able to meet her and get to know her, work with her, and have a blast doing this shoot!

i think it's fun to get to know, follow, and support other photographers and see their different styles shine through! designed this lovely blue dress for us. 
the lace was so intricate and dainty and i love the soft powder blue.

when we shot back in february i think we imagined having a little more snow but i can't complain because the weather turned out beautifully for this shoot!

i am hoping to get some more collaborations in the works and get out and model more!

the past couple of weeks have gone by so quick but i've also been able to take a few more steps into the modeling pond and that just makes me more excited to keep doing what i do and practicing more and more with every shoot.

this past week i was able to go home and catch up on my recordings of ANTM of this past season and man that show.... has always been and will always be my favorite.

especially getting into modeling recently and developing this love i didn't know i really had, learning all there is about the form and the work it takes to be a model, it really makes me appreciate what those girls go through and makes me yearn for the chance when i will hopefully get to experience some day.

i know i still have a long way to go.
i know i'm still learning.
i just have to be patient with the process.
i'm excited to learn more.
i'm excited to make mistakes so i know what to work on so that i can improve.

making my blog has gotten me out of my shell in front of the camera and that is the first step to modeling. i am no longer camera shy and oh boy did i use to be!! 

however i must admit..
i still have my up and down days. 
the days where i don't really believe in myself or what i'm doing 
and i'm going to be honest, 
there are days where satan tries to get me to believe that i can't do it or that i'm not like the other girls out there who are making it in the big leagues in blogging or modeling or even acting. 
and there are days where i don't want to be in front of the camera. there are days that i don't know what to post... and so i don't. there are days that i don't feel like i'm cut out to be a blogger. with work and school being my constant 24/7 it's hard to keep up with posting three times a day, every day, never missing a day, and always making a post every week.

but guess what? 
it's okay! 
it's okay to have the bad days so that we can appreciate the good days even more.
i know that it's all a part of the process and that i shouldn't compare myself to anybody else because we are all on this journey called LIFE and we are all going at the paces that are right for us.
i know that life is still GOOD and that my blog is a fun hobby that i enjoy doing and that i don't need to make it a stressful thing!

i know you readers probably feel similarly in various aspects of your life. 
this past week i heard a phrase that i often hear a lot of individuals say.
 i feel like many individuals refer to social media as "seeing all of the best moments of people's lives" and for bloggers, that's kind of what we are known for/criticized for.
and i know that always seeing people's "perfect posts" sometimes can be really discouraging. 
Haha it even gets ME down sometimes. 
i don't always have the prettiest pictures to post. my room isn't always nice and tidy. my kitchen isn't the perfect shade of white nor does my french toast have the best toppings for a photo. 
however it's just a picture! it's just .5 seconds out of their millions of seconds a day where anything and everything else can happen that we DON'T know about.


us bloggers, we are just the same as you. we all struggles and insecurities. 
and we all get a little moody! 
there are times where we don't feel like we've got the world in the palm of our hands despite what it may look like on social media. 
and most cases, we don't have it all put together. 
and none of us are any different than anybody else with any other hobbies or jobs!  

we don't need to compare ourselves to anybody else based on what we look like on social media. social media is a snapshot of a moment in someone's life. not their entire life. 
so let's stop being hard on ourselves. you are doing better than you think! let's stop comparing. and allow yourself to get a little moody too! but also, stay true to you and do whatever you want to do!  
because life is meant to be lived and loved by YOU.

xoxo // kenzie kaye

Tuesday, March 7, 2017

the end of feb.

am i the only one who is happy for feb to be over because that means it starts getting warmer??? 
even though this coat is super cute, i'm pretty excited to stop wearing it every single day ;)

it's now the second week of march and i feel absolutely SHEEPISH for barely getting a post up! 
i have all of these shoots i took over the winter break, and i am just barely remembering that i still have to post about them!

february went by so fast. 
i am grateful february has come and gone. that was a challenging month, a busy month.
i am already halfway done with the semester in school!
i spent most of the month trying to find a car, dealing with car accident problems, insurance companies, and car rental places.
(i had so many people calling me a day about my car i have never felt so popular in my life lol)
 i spent a lot of time working, going to school, and doing lots of homework and tests.

i tried being a responsible adult and spent a lot of time doing all of my homework before i left on my disney vacation with my family.

february was stressful and not very fun, it was really cold and it snowed a ton.

- getting my hair done! 
(i went a tad darker than usual and went 'chop-chop' to the ends & got some new layers)
-which i don't really have any pics from a shoot with my new hair yet but i'll talk about it a whole lot more when i do-
- booked my first "real" modeling gig/shoot with urban
(you may see me on a book cover without any makeup on and some dirt smudged all over my face but that's still pretty sick nevertheless)
-got a "new" car! 
(well... i've never met it before so it's new to me. it's white. and i still have yet to name it...) 

and that's about it!

this shoot was done by @sierrakatephotography 
luckily i was able to shoot with her for a second when i stayed at my parents' house for the weekend. 
she's the sweetest girl and i'm so grateful she came out in the freezing cold to shoot with me!

hopefully in march i'll remember that i actually have a blog and won't get so far behind ;)
i've got some awesome shoots to show you!

xoxo // kenzie kaye